It Was Beautiful…

| February 28, 2009

We’ve all been waiting, on a watch, of the most awful kind. While I’m grateful there is less suffering in the world today, my heart aches for those left behind. For Dude, Teenie, Cam, and Lisa Beautiful I’m looking for a way to feel you hold me Feel your heartbeat just one more time Reaching [...]

The Nasty “C” Word

| January 7, 2009

New year, new look? Sheesh, you must know me better than that! I’d change the look here even if the year didn’t change… or something like that. I never wonder how long it will last, I just wait for the day when I show up here take a look around and have to stop myself [...]

What “Normal” Really Means

| January 5, 2009

I am dreading this week. This week we have to return to UCLA with Ethan for a follow up appointment. We have all had enough of that place. They took great care of Ethan and his doctor (I am less than thrilled with the doctor he saw initially who didn’t really know his ass from [...]

The Ghost In The Shadows

| December 10, 2008

To the best of my knowledge they don’t make a handbook or manual for dealing with cancer. That word has been bandied about the house since Ethan was diagnosed, sometimes seriously other times with a mocking tone meant to demean, scoff at and humiliate the disease that entered our home uninvited and certainly unwanted. Even [...]

Do The Peppermint Twist

| December 9, 2008

After yesterday’s good news I took the kids to Starbuck’s for Peppermint Twist Mochas and Gingersnap Lattes (hot chocolate for Maggs) to celebrate. I’ve been battling a cold since the end of last week. My voice keeps going in and out and I have a nasty cough so it didn’t take long to use up [...]